June 21, 2018
So much has happened in the past few days. Each happening was powerful, emotional and even life changing. To borrow from Charles Dickens’ A Tale of Two Cities, a befitting quote would be ”It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair”.
One part of me feels very excited, joyful, pleased and glorious
and the other part of me feels numb, scared, empty and even hopeless.
There has been no in- between emotion all day. Unfortunately, sadness has been the ruling emotion. Today I have accomplished very little, further have no motivation to be productive and have been struggling desperately to stay focused. All I want to do is close my eyes and sleep so I don’t have to think about the stinky news I received.
I am a true introvert so I am not ready to share my bad or good news. I need time to make sense of the bad news I learned and grasp the beginnings of peace.